Where'd the world go wrong?

Who has ever been in love; What happened to the classical type of love; When did it go out of style; Where did everything go completely and utterly wrong; and PLEASE tell me why everyone settles for less? Because i've only ever remembered love as an unconditional feeling towards another; not an in-the-moment kind of thing where you're with them for the title or the bragging rights to say, "I hit that!". Whether the lovers were together or not, each wished the best for the other. Now-a-days people think having a child show's how much love they have for each other. That's weak sauce, mannnn. Ladies, really now?! Common sense coulda smacked you upside your head and told you that having a child is evidence of how dependant you are on him. Why do you feel the need to have him in your life .... FOREVER? If it was real love, you wouldn't need proof. It would be obvious to anyone that layed eyes on the both of you together. You can't decide you're own destiny. And when you get mad cause he leaves you for the next girl, don't get mad cause .... you can't plan karma, hunny. Karma is a bigger bitch than any female could ever be, so let em get theirs and you do you. But for the real loving lovers, do the damn thing. Show em what it's bout and how it's really supposed to go down. Big up's to the fella's who ain't afraid to have that special lady, flaunt her around, and tell her you love her and mean it.

peeeeeeeeeace, Miss <3 !

Love is the movement.

If you love something, let it go; if it comes back, that's how you know.

I remember the beginning as if it were yesterday; November 16, 2007. Mister pimp playa pimp thought he had it going on =P haha! Candy was playing and we were dancing in the club for a couple more songs. I knew his reputation, he knew who I was and that was that. We were two youngings in the club, nothing more than that. When February 2, 2008 rolled around, it was Stagg's Winter formal. I seen him; and the girl he was talking to at the time. I could care less because i knew what his intenions were. At that time, he was still just Andrew Quintal to me. No background between us besides the club. At the after party when formal was over, I was chillin in a room being sociable. I was sitting at the headboard of my girl's bed being a chatterbox when he walks in, looks straight at me and said, "Aye!". I looked towards the door, we made eye contact and gazed at each other for a couple of seconds. I said, "ME?". He said, "Yeaa, do you have a boyfriend?" and i laughed while the room got dead silent. I said, "Hahaha NO!". "Do you want one?!" he said, in a seductive yet demanding tone, and my only reaction was to laugh. And the girl he was talking to at the time walked in and hit him in the stomach. He looked down at her then looked up and continued to stare at me; she pulled him out of the door way, and that was that. Later that night Andrew, Derek and Harpreet kept trying to conversate with me but i had no interest; it was the first night i was introduced to them. Well, twenty day later on February 22, 2008 i was Harpreet's date to my cheerleading debutant ball. At the end of the night, Andrew, Harpreet, and Kristian spent the night. Kristian slept for a few hours then left. Andrew couldn't take his eyes off of me, but i still had no interest. He told me he was going to marry me and he began telling me how our wedding was going to happen. He asked me to be his date to his junior prom, but i denied. Prom was April 19 and i was going to be in Anaheim for a journalism convention from the 17 to the 20. Him and preet wrote notes and tacked them to my walls. It was a long night of conversation with Andrew and Harpeet, but it was very chill. I felt completely comfortable. The next morning they met my mom, and told me how they thought i was going to be a completely different girl, but they're happy they met me and were able to talk to me about everything we talked about. After that, Andrew and i rarely talked, but when we did, he'd talk about our wedding and i'd smile because it was cute; the back of my mind began telling me, "here we go." But... March passed. April passed. Things happened in between, but nothing that included him and i. Until May 25, 2008. He got my number and from that evening on, i knew we'd be together but i never let him know that. We hung out more than a few times between that day and the end of July. We also have a lot of memories in between. The weekend of July 4 i was in LA and Andrew and I were not talking. I had a complete change of heart because of some things that happened and we lost contact for a week, exactly. Then he called, and i told him how it was. I was done, but he didn't want that. He called. I let go, and he came back. He wanted to continue our friendship/relationship, so his goal was to try and gain me back. Though it wasn't easy, he did, which is why August 12, 2008 became the day of A <3 A.

DAMN, it's been a bumpy road with horrible weather. But i knew we could do it from jump, and we're stronger than ever as of this early morning; March 22, 2008.

Last night, i broke up with him; for reasons that only concern him and i. I was done, and ready to let go. I knew that he loved me, but words just didn't mean enough anymore. I stopped replying to his texts, and didn't try to call him. That's how i knew i was done; i wasn't trying to fix it anymore. After a couple of hours, he called me. He spoke, i listened. I knew he was sincere and because i let karma hit him hard. He wants to change for the better, to be MY better. A lot was learned and a lot was understood. The thing that matters the most is, he came back. I let go and he came back.

Now there's a lot of missing pieces to this story, and it may not flow with details, but that stays between him and i. This is the beginning of our book and today, we start a new chapter.

xoxo Lady Quintal!

Acceptance.

"To let go isn't to forget, not think about, or ignore. It doesn't have feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn't winning or losing. It's not about pride. It's not about obsessing or dwelling on the past. It isn't about loss and it's not defeat. To let go is to cherish memories, but to overcome them and move on; letting go is accepting. Letting go is having the courage to accept change. Letting go is growing up."

Today, March 21, 2009, means just as much as August 12, 2008; a new beginning, yet it's over. And i'm as happy as i was that day, but it's over. Seven and a half months, huh? And the ending, is just as important as the beginning. I can say it in any order with as many different synonyms that i can find in a thesaurus, but the result is the same and i'm content. I'm independent and whole again ;] !

xoxo miss

God is Love.

God is love. Love is patient, love is kind; it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, is not self-seeking; it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth; it always protects, always trusts, always hopes....

A Good Woman

"A good woman is proud of herself. She respects herself and others. She is aware of who she is. She neither seeks definition from the person she is with, nor does she expect them to read her mind. She is quite capable of articulating her needs. A good woman is hopeful. She is strong enough to make all her dreams come true. She knows love, therefore she gives love. She recognizes that her love has great value, and must be reciprocated. If her love is taken for granted, it soon disappears. A good woman has a dash of inspiration, a dabble of endurance. She knows that she will, at times, have to inspire people to reach the potential that God gave them. A good woman knows her past, understands her present, and moves toward her future. A good woman knows God. She knows that with God the world is her playground, but without, she will just be played. A good woman does not live in fear of the future because of her past. Instead, she understands that her life experiences are merely lessons, meant to bring her closer to self knowledge, and unconditional self love."

i found it and i absolutely love it; the truth's never been so clear.

xoxo miss

Chopz is speaking.

Arianna Cheyenne Perez
you know how they say a pictures worth a thousand words? Well, i need a photo album to describe this girl. Crazy Kool and Super Unique. Not to mention a smart girl, ahem nd a smart ass. ;] But, i love her. This girl is here for anyone who needs her. She sees people for exactly who they are, and she'll tell you how it is. She doesn't hold back, for anyone or anything. Determined is an understatement, and funny doesn't even begin to describe her. She'll keep you entertained for hours :D
Arianna is the one person I know who knows who she is, what she wants, and where she's going. She'll put a smile on your face when you feel like crying, and her hugs will make your heart wanna burst, in a good way. :]
When i look at Arianna i see a girl who doesn't see herself clearly. Full of worry and indefinite self doubt, for no reason might i add, but she's going places, big places none of us are ever going to see.
She's the strongest person I know so talk your crap and run your mouth, it doesn't affect her at all, fyi ;D love her or hate her, it doesn't matter because you can't break the girl who couldn't careless.

-i love you Nana, ♥ ch0ps-sUey.

Friday the 13th

As of Friday, March 13, 2009; life is absolutely amazing. And i could not ask for anything more. My life is intact and i have everything i could ask for; it feels so surreal. I am truly content and blessed. This whole week i've been at the cheer workshops and today, I made varsity cheerleading. I am Editor in Chief in journalism. I have my boyfriend, my love. I have my big sis, my girls, friends and most importantly my family, and my mother who means the world to me.

Life is good; way more than good, it's undescribalble. Well, i just can't describe it right now because I'm so like, AHHHHHH happy! Whoop whoop :D so flipping happy. AJ got my reaction on camera when i read my name on the cheer list. Ughh, it is such a relief to be at this point again, and I am so grateful to be on the squad. I'm ecstatic. I can not cant wait for this season to begin; it's gonna be a hit ;] ! And this school year, MY senior year, oh man! The best ever...Congratulations to the other 19 girls who made varsity =) and thank you to those who had faith in me, i love you!
xoxo miss

Cheerleading

my heart feels like it's about to beat out of my chest. im scared as hell and dreading tomorrow. lunch starts at 1o:25 and that's when ill find out if ill be cheering my senior year. I'm so iffy. Ill be devastated if my name is not on that list. i made jv freshman year and varstiy my sophomore year and didn't try out for junior year; so nervous right now. im more worried than i am excited; total opposite of how i was before try outs. so many thoughts are running through my mind; i dont know what to think, but i gotta be positive :] . oh my gosh....

xoxo miss

Try-Outs!

Ahhh! Today was the first workshop for cheerleading try-outs. I have another workshop tomorrow and wednesday, then i perform for the judges thursday and get results posted at lunch on friday the 13th, OH MY GOSH. I was a JV cheerleader my freshman year and varsity my sophomore year; didn't try-out my junior year. Everything is going great so far. The underclassman are so cute =) haha. I feel so old though. It's bout to be my senior year, GEEZE. buuuuut anywho.....im sore as hell; i feel paralyzed. I haven't done jumps and stuff since the middle of February 2008! Long time, no cheerlead, eh? Peeeace.

xoxo miss

Fresno Convention

Today i'm going to Fresno for a journalism convention where i'll be competing in photography :D yay! I woke up at 3:45. Ugh, not tired though. I had to get donuts for Erin, Dawn, Michael, Mr. Bott, and myself, and now i'm back home because i'm ready really early haha. I don't need to be at Bott's house til 6:00. I have no frickin clue what today has in store for me, but i hope i win some first places! I hope, well i know Erin will take first in writing, as well as Dawn and Michael. AHHHHHH! Just a little nervous, but it'll be fun! Well, i won't be back til about 6:45 pm. Peacccce.

xoxo miss

Urban Dictionary

My big sis found this website, urbandictionary.com, and typed my name in to see what it meant...

Arianna Cheyenne

- Arianna: a more unique name, originating from the Lost World. People with this name are literally worshipped by their offspring and friends. Often times there are moments where you will get flashbacks with Arianna, due to their repetitive quote, "Remember that one time...?" A person who is usually beautiful, hot, amazing, cool, sweet, funny, hip, cool, awesome etc. In biblical terms, Arianna means "Pure of Heart," "Holy One," and "God Like." She may seem quiet but around friends, and especially when she is hyper, she is the life of the party.

- Cheyenne: A 'bad influence' though really she's a good one. Possibly one of the most rad people in this world. Absolutely insane, but easy to fall in love with. Very pretty, very mature for her age. Finds the good in everything. Has an amazing body, mind, soul, and heart. Great friend. Extremely sexual and kinky and funny as hell!

accurate much?!

xoxo miss