March/April 2010 !

So i have been the most busy these past two months . somush has gone on, and i havent had time to update my blogspot ! life hit earlier than i expected ....

March:
* winter banquet for cheer
* Stagg blood drive (didnt donate, just volunteered)
* issue 6 of The Stagg Line distributed
* CSU Fresno w. Bott, Sam, Scahill and Collura
* pictures/lunch w. Taylor giiiiiiiiiiiiiiirl :D
* arts&crafts w. PDW <3
* SHS SPIRIT WEEK
- Class color day (green)
- Hawaiian day
- Green&gold day (St. pow pow day)
- Tye-die hippie day
- mixmatch high sock day
* ASB BBQ/prepare SR.walk
*painted SR.walk :)
* R.Brown's 18th bday party
* got ma hair did (mahogany w. blonde peek-a-boos)
* visit to DVI (all male prison in tracy)


April:
* lent ended, could finally eat salt again !
* moved out and in w. my PDW <3
* flychick LC's 18th bday !
* issue 7 of The Stagg Line distributed
* MY 18TH BDAY =D !!
* 2-night dance showcase !
* jaguar Scahill's 18th bday !
* nails did for prom !

2* in 2k10

AHHHH the shortest month of the yr: February :) .... is coming to an END, already . Time FLIES ! This also means my SR.yr is coming to an end...OMGosh !

February:
* Jiggs turned 18
* DearJohn w. PDW & Sactown w. PDW/Jiggs
* Pics w. Cupid/balloon o' grams (of course i did my PDW work mwuahah)
* my SR. night :') . I CRIED!
* Valentine - Jamen Jones
* LENT began: gave up ADDING salt to my food - ADDICTED
* Education, NOT incarceration - LIFE altering
* saw Jiggs wrestle @ Divisionals - JESUS!
* last bball game for cheer (1-9) @ E-house !
* PROM DRESS <3
* Taylor giiiiiiiiiiirl turned 16 !
* 1/3 journ.lateday <3

My month was SUPER busy, and also a month that proved how much I really am growing, and growing up....whether I want to or not. I'm preparing myself for after May 25, and I'm doing a pretty damn good job :) ! AHHHHHH yaaaay me.

So, this is what im thinking...

I have a blogspot, a twitter, MySpace, Tumblr, AIM. How to keep up w. all of that AND school: (AP courses), journalism, cheer and life ? Simply this:
* Blogspot: my updates (monthly)
* Twitter: my dailies
* MySpace: represents ME
* Tumblr: my every-other-day typa thangg
* AIM: anytime bby :)

SO!
The month of January has been a crazy1, lemme tell ya !
On my last blog, i left off where AJ turned 18 :) since then....

January:
* made my resume
* finished local scholarship applications
* as an out-going, very well-accomploished senior, i gave a speech to incoming freshman @ Stagg High :) YAY ME!
* league for bball has began - currently (1 - 4)
* took 2nd place @ regionals, qualified for Nationals in Anaheim =D !
* my bubba ERIC turned 18
* my BFF sophia turned 18
* treated myself to get my nails REdone
* went on a double date <3
* spent a day w. family in linden for my cousins bday
* flychick Brit turned 18
* issue 5 of the Stagg Line came out <3
* MC'ed my school rally that I put on for the school: 1800 students!

and now it's 1.31.10 ! TOMORROW IS THE FIRST DAY OF FEBRUARY :) exciting . my 1st month in 2010 has been better than great . life is spectacular, and i am mos def livin it up . MOS DEF ;) !

Apologies, updates !

SOOOOO SORRY, please accept my apologies for not blogging in over 3 months. For most of the time my computer has been down + no internet . BUT, my father got me a laptop for christmas so im set, hakuna matata (no worries) :] yess !

October:
- Iesha&Derek's son Devin Monroe was born :) awwww
- Stagg Homecoming Parade in which I was a Homecoming Queen candidate, FUNN !!!
- I won runner up, lost by 9 votes. OMGosh, heartbreaker but im still a Queen ;) !
- FlyChick Brit's SR. night for volleyball
- Jamen's 18th bday, Kat threw him a crackin party on Halloween :) so much fun !

November:
- spanked E-shack in football: 28 to 21 :) stoked !!
- jamen&ty go went to jail for 3 dayss !
- dyed my hair @ home for thee first time EVER, medium auburn .
- CONVICTED**
- stagg society hoe down ahaa best dance everr lmao .
- CHICO, dirtyy 5 - 30 . visited the ex-factor @ college, BLAST !
- preseason bball started, yess !
- my partner doyle weenis turned 18 . yes she did :) !
- thanksgivin w. the fam(ily)

December:
- PANORAMA SR. pics :)
- my SR. winter formal
- one of the best christmas breaks, EVERR !
- 2k10 bash @ my house =D talk about fun, thats where it was @ !

January:
(thus far...)
- Squirrel's Sweet 16 party :) heeeeey
- FlyChick AJ turned 18

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2k10 has been one of the best thus far. I have never been as happily single as i am now. I am entirely content to the point that i cnt be content enough. Doin me and gettin mine, regardless of anyone else . Selfish, NO. Life moves on; dnt drown in its waves, hurricanes, and tsunamis...and def. dnt get caught in the bermuda triangle of death; just go w. the flow and see where you end up ;) its worth it . *PERSONAL EXPERIENCE

Thats it for now . Ta ta !

Mmmm, trademarks ;)

I love tattoo's and piercings. LOVE, LOVE, LOVE them. They're the best. And hair!... OMG, the second best. I am a dare-devil. Never been one to say no to something crazy. Sooo, I am going to try new things with my hair :) . Ahhh, I love it ! Awesome.

I want a side piece on my right rib cage.
I want sleeves. If not both, my whole left arm.
I want something on my lower back, considering a back piece.
I want one on my wrist, below my palm.
I want one on my inner bottom lip.
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I want more piercings.
* already have reg. ears, naval, tongue
I want my tragus pierced.
I want an industrial bar.
I want my second holes pierced.
I want my nose, like a bull =P .
I want my eye brow done.
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And my HAIR, my security blanket, awwww.
What to do with it. It's lengthy down my back to my tailbone, brown with long layers and two blonde peek-a-boos behind my ears. I wanna try something new. New color, new layers, new cut, SAME length. I cannot cut it off yet, that's a BIG no-no. But I NEED something different. HELP WANTED =] !

I want a lot =] if you couldn't tell. And I will get them, maybe not ALL, but majority :) . And I will do something new with my hair, but I need ideas.

My grama's gonna KILL me. Oh well, I'll always be her lovely little love ;) . I'm excited !!! THESE ARE THE BEST! Life's memories on my body, just great. I cannot wait!

Dress = STRESS

Here's the deal.

Saturday, we go into the dress shop and they STILL have dresses from prom time last year. None of the dresses on the wall catch my eye, NONE of them are attractive. Well DUH, because I saw them all 6 months ago; BORING! The lady that is ALWAYS working remembers me because I've been a customer for the longest time. She told me that a new shipment of 30 - 40 dresses will be in on Tuesday. So I told her I'd come back.

I went back Tuesday at 2:00, like she said, and... NADA! Nothing arrived because the UPS truck broke down and the FedEX truck was running late, so I was like FML! She said to come back Wednesday and the shipments will have arrived.

So we go back today, and... 6 dresses ! ARE YOU FCKING KIDDING ME?! You said 30 - 40, not SIX! And two of them were SHORT dresses, which I DO NOT want. So basically, FOUR! And they were hideous. Well cute, but not my style, whatsoever. She said the final shipment should be coming in later today, so I said I'd call to check in. I call at 5 o'clock and NOPE, the shipment is STILL not in. Uhhh, straight FML! So I gave her my number so she can call me when they finally DO arrive.

I'm picky when it comes to dresses. And for this occasion, I want a long gown. It's not her fault, but she shouldn't tell me the shipment will be in when she's not 100% sure. And UPS/FedEX need to get on top of their game. My point is, I loathe the fact that I'm always on top of my game and stick to my word. I always follow through, always. You can count on me, I'm dependable. Why do other people make that such a difficult thing to be?

ANYWHO: I had an alternative... I went to a bridal shop and found an amazing dress :) I think I like it. We'll see what happens!

Homecoming dress shopping = STRESS!

But I couldn't be happier that I made Homecoming Court =D !

LESSON LEARNED: Do NOT make one thing/person you're priority, because there are PLENTY of more options. And, the only person you can depend on is yourself, especially if you're trying to make important/special things happen.

Life, unwritten.

Every morning I awake from my sleep, and arise out of my bed just anxious to unravel my future, because I'm addicted to this precious thing called life. Life is unwritten, and I love knowing I am the author to my OWN story.

Life is unsxplainable, honsetly. I've taken advantage of every opportunity that has came my way and somehow, it comes back as something positive. Life is great; I could not ask for anything better ... God is good to me!
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It's been a COO minute since I've visted my blog. A goal on my calendar is to blog more, keep it updated :) . But anyways, here are some things to note:

- SR. yr is the best, yet =D
- I LOVE being a schoolgirl, bookworm, nerd, etc...
- The busy life is for me
- making new friends brightens my life, broadens my horizon
- LC and Brit are thee best - flyChicks♥
- made Homceoming Court ... awaiting the results on oct.10 at the Homecoming game
- still SINGLE and strong; holdin' it down for MYSELF.

This is the way life should be. Friends, fortune and fun. I go to school to get an education; that is my serious time. My weekend memories are my motivation to continue living this life, because this is what I've strived for for SO long. I continue to break the stereotype I am always put in to, and that's how I like it ;) .

P.S. - Family and friends are the best support team... EVER!

P.S. #2 - Life is the shot we have to make things happen... Let's get it.

Two became 1, divided.

08/12/08 ?
today is 08/12/09 ...
the difference? One year.

Today would be one year for Andrew and I. I am hurting internally because we didnt reach an official year, but externally I refuse to show it because I'm not one to frown about what did not happen. I'm so blessed to have had him, and am truly grateful that I've had his love, and always will. In this lifetime one thing is true, i was, and forever will be, loved by him; and nothing can alter that. We are one of many definitions of love and I truly believe that, as well as anyone who has witnessed our relationship. I love him unconditionally, and I always will... but things and people change along with the seasons and though we are no longer together, I will always feel the same about him. No one can ever doubt that; we're solid.
And I promise you that, Andrew ;) . I love you.

Love, Miss ACQ

Long time, no blog.

so it's been a while, and A LOT has happened; too much to sum up, but here are the important things to note:

- imma successful senior with my head on straight
- i finished ALL of my AP summer work and did well on the tests
- i love my schedule :)
- i went to cheer camp; got burnt BAD, super bad .
- had journalism BBQ
- and things couldnt be any better :D

OH YEA ....
im single, too ... thats a BIG one .
we'll see what happens in the future, but for now, he's still close to me and i will always love him ;) nothing will ever change that .

other than that.... im doing awesome ! taking on my gov and enlgish AP courses (and doing great), co-editor in chief of The Stagg Line, Vice President of the c/o 2010 and loving anatomy and TAing for dance class =] . a varsity cheerleader as well. loving my life and everything in it ♥ .

He loves me, no strings attached.

Appearance is the first impression people derive from you. My style may vary. I dress to impress, and I dress to self-contentment. Make up is my thing. Hair with volume is my fetish. I feel at my best when I am all dolled up; that is when i feel most prettiest. He prefers me all natural. To get ready with much less effort than usual. He loves being able to touch my face without smearing anything, and he loves to run his fingers through my hair with no product in it. That is when I am at HIS prettiest.

He appreciates me in a way I forgot to see myself - most beautiful at my most rawest.


Dolled up daily is routine for me. But, it's only been routine since day 1 of high school. Now when I think about it, im really getting dressed up to please my peers. He's made me realize that. Beauty is only skin deep, though society views beauty on a pretended level.

He loves me at my barest moments, and that's why i love him.

The Business.

Courtney Eden - Bitch, let me break it down. I know where you work. I got your phone number. And don't test me; I know where your punk ass lives. MY business is not YOUR business. What I do, ain't YOUR problem. What my man does for me, ain't YOUR problem. He's more of man that your half ass little boyfriend Steven Fields will ever be. Do you get the picture yet?! MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS. Bitch, this is strike two; strike three, and you're done for mothafucker. I ain't going nine innings with your dumb ass. You will get cut, promise you that. You's a grimey little fake ass heffa who tryna fuck shiet up; well listen up and read clearly: I'm classy. You're an unworthy hood rat. Put two and two together; I'LL SHIET ON YOUR BITCH ASS ;) . KEEP YOUR D.S.L. SHUT. Don't push me over the edge, because your ass will be coming down with me.

I can be anything...

but what you want me to be. And i am the best you never had.

I can do anything, because nothing is impossible. I read the word, 'impossible' and comprehend, 'i'm possible'. I will no longer blind myself to what can be accomplished. Life is unmeasurable, so i am daring myself to take on this journey and enjoy it forever. Life is the gift. Each day life becomes more precious than the day before, only because i am one day closer to my presence being absent. Life has one promise, death. Yet death is not the devastation; not living life, is. I have learned this through experience and through observation. I believe i was given this life for a reason, and everything i have overcome was a blessing in disguise. Those blessings were to prove that i can do anything. God gave me this life, and i will leave my mark in this world. I am full of life, and life is full of many possibilities; I am possible.

Pretended People

Artificial - it's the latest fad, and eveyone i know seems to fit in the category. Yes, everyone i know; that's correct, I SAID IT - Everyone i know. Why do people make the very possible, impossible? Life is about living and being who YOU are. So why do people try so hard to taint and ruin other people's lives? That has never been clear to me. I've always wanted to ask someone, who says they're true, but i know they're fake, why they enjoy being a fictitious person when i know they have someone beautiful on the inside? I would ask, but they'd give me an assumed answer. If i were to ever become a person with NO friends, it would be because i wouldn't allow myself to befriend someone bogos. This isn't even about mockery; this is about people who are one person to your face and another person when they think you're not watching. Two faced? Yes. I never thought it would infest every person i thought was at least a friend. I know i am not apart of this virus, that's why i stray away from the infection. It is not who i am, nor will it ever be.

I am murderous.

You - a repulsive liar. I - constantly mysterious of your presence and being. Always wondering, thinking, putting things together like a puzzle. I have always been talented at that, doing detective-like things. I will find out, one way or another. I am passionate and determined; those two are deadly when someone is murderously desirous to find out the plain truth. My motive is not to be nosey, but to keep my back from being stabbed. I will never play the fool, never will i allow myself for that to be acceptable. I know me, and i know what is best for me. I will always do what i have to do in order to keep me intact and well. I could give a damn about the other's feelings, because they obviously didn't mind what i would have felt in the long run. No sympathy for people who try to play the victim. I will never play wounded.

Me vs. Us

Disappointment doesn’t even begin to express my agony. You can walk around and say how much of a grown man you are, but you can’t pick up a damn phone to say how late you’ll be home, do you care? Apparently not, because your words don’t speak as loud as your actions. Your actions are consistent and your words, they’re not equivalent. Your actions say one thing but your words, they’re...the reason im still here. Because I am a believer; And when you give me that little ounce of hope, im going to run with is as far as I possibly can before you can catch up and expect me to let you take it back. Insecurities are something I don’t lack, but it’s only because of the fact that im the only one at the end of the day that will pick up your slack. I don’t want to live in misery, because misery loves company, you see, and I prefer it better when it’s just you and me. Not you, and me, and the whole damn country. You’ve got my mind in distress, it’s like you could give a damn and care less. Look at this, I’m a mess. You’ve got me going insane. Too bad hallmark doesn’t make those beautiful cards for the heartbreaks, the heartaches, and the heart attacks you almost put me through. They don’t make cards for those desolate nights. You know, the ones where I dry my eyes out with my pillowcase because my tears fall faster than the fastest bullet being shot. You shoot me down day to day, and how is it possible that I am still alive, I don’t know. I am a woman. My motives are...none of what I am speaking about. I can’t even sleep knowing that I know you, because either way you’re going to be on my mind. I can dream, on my good nights when you don’t leave me hanging, but my mind begins to wonder and say, “What is he trying to prove?” The nights I feel so abandoned, remind me of why I never wanted to be with you. I am a child of the man above and when you make me feel like I don’t have anyone else but you and you’re not there, I whisper my sweet prayer thinking He’s got something made for you. See, everything is about you isn’t it? In your world. In my world. In the world I fought to believe was our world. Little did I know, that I can revolve my world around yours. Your threshold is my orbit, and anything that comes near you has already been through me, because...you see, you live within me. And that’s why it is so hard to just be, because you make it easy to be, whereas for me, being isn’t about being, because it’s about you being with me.

Fun fact?

It's a given.

I've always got something that comsumes my mind. I am forever thinking about something. Anything, but everything. I'm either analyzing, comprehending, confused, or just simply thinking. I am full of thoughts, day and night. Whether it is day-dreaming, plainly thinking, or sleeping; my mind is going. My mind is unpolluted, it's my utopia when need be.

To elude from this place we call reality, i alleviate myself by writing. I jot down anything and everything. Everything has a reason, so i've learned. I may think with my mind, but i will always speak with my heart. My two most prized possessions: my heart, my mind. And my third ... my life.

Love, me ....

BFF more life BFF NEVER!

I find it ironic that the people you call your other half/best friend, can be your worst enemy. It's ironic how people turn out to be the person they said they'd never become. That's life, i've realized that. I am no longer like a leech, that attaches myself to people. I know i have myself and if i cant depend on myself, then DAMN, i dont have anyone. But, I AM MY WORST ENEMY. Best friends? No, i dont have that any longer. And i no longer believe in them. I thought i had the best friend i'd have for a lifetime, situations proved me wrong. To be quite honest, i dont miss her. That may be a little relentless, but the truth hurts. She may never understand why i can no longer be friends with her, but that proves how much she really doesnt know me anymore. It's not my loss, i wasnt the one who f-cked up. I forgave her TOO many times for things i never should have let pass by. It justifies my maturity, and how i don't need her by my side. I felt that i needed her there, though she f-cked up plenty of times, i still kept her near. I had no explanation until now; I was weak. I refused to let all those f-cking years go down the drain, but guess what, buh bye ! I'd rather live without her than live a lie. I can live without her existence in my life, and i am doing so, just fine ;) !

Love Arianna <3

go go go!

I've been on the go this month. April is the most eventful month for me; constantly doing something, literally! So i was in Arizona from the 16-19 .... took third in the nation :) somebody had to take it, right? Haha right when i got back into town, it was time to do prom stuff. Took my babe to get fitted for his tux. Monday was school and dance rehersal. And tuesday was prom stuff again...Wednesday was my 17th birthday, but i had rehersal til 6:30. Then a very EVENTFUL night. Not the kinda birthday i would ever wish for anyone else to have. BUT, my babe sent me roses to my house <3 and made me a card that is six pages long.......ADORABLE, i love him. His 18th birthday was on the 18, but i was in Phoenix =[. We celebrated so its all good. His party is this saturday.... Thursday and Friday i had my dance showcase, LONG NIGHTS! Oh my gosh, but i performed very well =); both nights! And saturday was prom, my junior prom. My day started at 8 in the morning, and it never ended ;) once again, I LOVE HIM! And then there's today, and i was still running around. Picked up our prom pictures, did TOO Much driving and spent time with him. Now im here, and waiting to go to bed ... don't know why im waiting though haha. Good night...

Love Lady Q!

JEA Convention '09!

The annual journalism convention is coming up, TOMORROW THRU SUNDAY!! Ah. Pheonix, Arizona baby. Last year it was in Anaheim, Cali. Tomorrow is going to be my very first plane ride - scared shitless. Not because of the height, im afraid of the plane crashing! Buuuuuuut, it shall be fun and we WILL take first place =) AGAIN! We're competeing against high schools around the nation. We will also be taking up to 12-15 classes. OMG, exciting stuffffffff!

love miss

Gut Feeling

Never been so nervous...that i can recall. Is this my gut, or is it my mind? I'm so ........ so unable to write right now.....